Big Steps

In physical therapy lately, our Ms. Beth has been getting our little Griffin to walk holding on to a walker. I can usually hear him screaming, while I wait out in the lobby, and I run over to the glass door to see if I can see him and usually they are to far away, I can't make out much, I just know it is him, because I know his cries. But this past Tuesday they were close enough so that if I mashed my face against the glass he could see me. That little boy wanted his mama, so he walked, the length of this very long hallway, face hot, tears streaming, and I got down on my knees, waved for him to come, opened my arms wide, so my victorious little jewel could be swept up as soon as he was done!

I was so proud. I love him so much.

And the amazing thing with our Ms. Beth, is that even though Griffin knows what is about to come when we go to her office, he always dives into her arms, willing, happy, and ready. She is a special therapist.

I have been working on having a rhythm to our days of the week, and to our weeks of the month. To add a little bit of planning to them. So I started with a weekly meal planning, and a day of gathering food at our local farmers market for that weeks meals. And a simple cleaning schedule. So instead of looking at my days, with so much that I have to get done, I just broke it up over the month and days, so each day I have a more manageable amount of things to do.

This week the "extra" cleaning chore was to vacuum the whole house, couches, and mattresses.

Griffin LOVES the vacuum! He just wants to chase it, ride on it, lay by it, touch it.

This past week we had my super special brother and sisters over, and Griffin's super special Aunts and Uncle, to go to a fun swimming pool down the street. I didn't end up taking as many pictures as planned, but it was so much fun!

A sleeping brother and uncle :)

And Griffin with Aunt Monica, wondering where all his other Aunts walked off to?!

A few months ago, I got the inspiration to try to simplify. I wanted to strip my house of any clutter, of stuff, stuff, stuff that fills it up that we don't need. To make room for what it is that we are suppose to be doing. I stepped back from blogging and reading blogs, and tried to examine my life, and who I am, and where we are at. What things should I say yes to and which things should I say no to. It is hard. But I have made some progress I think.

I tend to define myself in relation to everyone around me, and in relation to who everyone else is. And the big beautiful Me, gets lost that way. And then I stop doing that and I find myself again, and then I go back to comparing and competing and trying to match everyone else. So it goes back and forth and it is a learning every day, a loving every day.

I found this book in the check out line at Marshall's the other day, and it made me cry right there in that line. It is beautiful and I bought it for Griffin, I am going to right a note in the cover, and talk about how he is the most incredible him, and he is incredible, solely because he was created to exist divinely as the person that he is.