An ode to my husband

I don't have a poem, but I do have a lot of praise and deep feelings for my Matthew.  

Our 2 year anniversary was last week and I have been wanting to spit this out on here since.  

All words will come out and fall short of what they really mean.  I'll go with some simple truths...

 My husband is incredible.  Our marriage has continuously gotten better since day one.  I think this is because my husband is so incredible.  He blows me away constantly with how unselfish he is.  With how constant his love is for me and Griffin.  With how strong he is.  Matt is also so encouraging to me.  He is so supportive of me.  He is so devoted to me and Griffin.  He is a man who does just as much, maybe even more, house chores and baby duties as me.  He is so secure, so stable.  He is so kind.  He is so truthful.  He is so gentle.  

I have been appreciating deeply so much lately how much he likes me.  I think that maybe I might do this thing where I am constantly seeking peoples approval of me.  As I reflect over the past, I think that maybe I might have always been trying to be someone who was liked.  And now for the first time in my life I have the first person that KNOWS every thing, part, ounce, of me( I am sure there are things about me that I don't even know)  and he approves of me, he likes me, he loves me, just because he does.  He really loves me and LIKES me!  Not because I do something fun, or because I am pretty, or because I dance well,  or whatever I have done in the past looking for approval.  Do you know how good this feels?  I catch myself realizing the reason, my motivation, for doing something, and I stop and I think,  I don't have to do this, Matt likes me just because he does.  He chooses to like me every second of his existence and it has nothing to do with me, it has everything to do with him and God probably.  Do you have any idea how freeing this is to me?  How restful this is for me?  How healing this is for me?  How healthy this is for me?  

All of his wonderfulness encourages and inspires me everyday.  To never give up and to be a better person.    

I can't believe this is my life.  I can't believe this is where I am.  

And tonight I was reminded (that reminder came from a sweet miracle baby boy himself named Rhyder who needs lots of prayers)  of what a miracle and blessing Griffin is.  We were all laying on the floor together.  The house to just us.  Watching Yo Gabba Gabba.  Our wonderful cat sleeping so cute on the couch.  It was a wonderful thing to be reminded of.  And then after the show Griffin took off crawling ever so fast all around the kitchen floor.  Under the kitchen table, through the chairs, around the island.  I was reminded about where he came from, three hospitalizations, to crawling on his own.  I should never forget how much I have.  

P.S. - Our anniversary is on the same day as Rick and Terri's ( Matt's parents)  just 28 years later.  And I want to say that they are very much a part of all that has blessed me and Matt and Griffin.  It feels like me and griffin were meant to be here with them as well.