white daisies passing...: How do you deal?

With frustration as a mama?

Griffin took 1.5 hours to go to sleep tonight. I get so frustrated on the inside and then I feel so bad for getting frustrated. I walk out of his room and and breathe in the fact that I love being a mama. And that is for sure going to come with frustrations. So I forgive myself, understand that things like this are going to come, applaud myself for using self control and never letting it get out of my own chest, fall more in love with my little boy, and try to come up with ways to let go of a frustrating bed time while in the midst of it. He doesn't need to sense my frustration and I don't need it to sit in my chest and occupy space, unhealthy for the both of us.

We had our first cool front here in TX. I was super excited to dress Griffin in his first fall outfit of the year. We also happened to buy him a sandbox on that day, so we called it a happy fall present!

Daddy about to pour in the sand!

First touch...not so sure?

A little more excited :)

Sand feels soooo good!

We love our sand box!

And my sister moved out this week :(

This is Griffin learning that his Auntie May went bye bye.

Oh it was sad. But we must let her go. And she will return soon.

A little bit about her.

She has been my best friend since she was born ( although I didn't know it until I was 17 and her 13)

I slept in her bed until I was 15 because I was horribly scared of the dark until then.

Once when I was 9 and she was 5, my parents left us at home for a short amount of time by ourselves. What my parents didn't know at that time is I had watched a horrible movie that day at the babysitters (Chuckie) eww, it still makes me shiver, and I was terrified for a long time from it. When they left us home alone I was so scared that I made megan go into every room before me to make sure it was all ok. She wasn't scared of movies or of the dark, she was in so many ways my big sister. I was the scaredy cat.

When I was 8 and she was 4 I woke her up in the middle of the night so we could go wrap a house together, like all the cool kids down the street do, and so I would be able to tell all the cool kids that I had done it too. I snuck into my moms bedroom in the middle of the night, found her purse, found her keys, walked 6 houses down, and four empty toilet paper rolls later we were done. Once we were back inside we realized that we had ants all over our feet and legs and then had to scramble to wash them all off in our bathroom.

When I was 13 and she was 9 we tied sheets together and slid down the laundry chute with them.

We climbed over the banister railing at our house and jumped down to the second story.

We played beanie babies all night long, staying up until 4 and 5 in the morning.

She has lived with us since we moved into this house, and she was one of Griffin very best friends. Everyone always saw how much Griffin and her loved each other. Oh they had a very special bond. She would watch him for me, put him to sleep for me, feed him for me. So much help and love. Oh she is a girl that I love and admire in so many ways. I can't wait for her to visit.

Here are all the pictures I had of her and Griffin.

The famous kisses from Sophie incident ;)

We joke all the time that Griffin might actually be her child because he loves TV. I hate it, Megan she LOVES it. She introduced him to almost all of his TV loves.