Thrills!

I have been thinking lately...

How did I not know my entire life that what I really wanted to be was a mother?

Through out that whole time I was going to college, searching for it, for my great calling, it never occurred to me that being a mom is really what I wanted to be, really where I was going all along. I was looking for banners waving in the sky to point me in the right direction, I thought an audible voice would speak out and declare this thing I was going to be. And all the while, really, it just snuck up on me, honestly, I fell into motherhood. And I fall more and more everyday.

To the spirited 18 year old, being a mother didn't really feel like a calling, it felt like a given. Like an "Of course I will be a mother, I am a female" sort of given. I was searching for something flashy and grand, something I could march around talking about and impressing people with. Oh this search for me at times was sad, because I always came up empty handed, with out an answer.

Now when people ask me what I do, I say I am a mom. It feels just right to me. To be this. To be a mother. The simplicity of this calling, but the importance of it, maybe not to everyone, but especially to one little boy.

I look at him and I think to myself, how could I not have known, that this was all I wanted. If I had known I swear I would of poured over all things mothering info containing. I would have known all the natural home cures, and all the best way to encourage play.

But alas, I am here, and I have now to pour into all things mothering....

So thankful for him, for learning and growing of myself.

It is the most thrilling thing I have yet to experience being his mama.

And speaking of thrilling,

he is learning to walk

A few steps at a time, a whole lot of thrills at a time.

And we let little nakey, run around naked in the kitchen the other day.

I think he was a bit thrilled? eh?